11 June 2011


I read last summer that time spent beside large bodies of water is good for your mental health. Perhaps this is why I've found myself waterside several times this week. Not only are we in the in-between of this move -- waiting to move into our own place and for Adam to get put on his new schedule of four nights on, four nights off -- but this week my grandmother died. I'm not really sure how to process it all. I am aching for relief from this limbo, this in-between-ness, but I don't think I'll find it for awhile. None of this is what I expected.

I've spent a lot of time in prayer and staring off into space. That's where the water comes in handy, though of course Lily doesn't let me drift off for long. I want a routine, something we can rely on, but more changes are coming and all I can do is wait as patiently as I can. 

So we head out the door to explore our (new) hometown. We walk along the lake, the river, the canal. We feed the ducks and play on playgrounds and make the best of it. Because, really, it's not that bad. This is the life we wanted.


julie said...

sorry for your loss, lindsay. i hope you find peace in this time. i have been longing for normality and daily routine lately as well. been finding comfort in small things, like having the same cup of tea each day. hope that your transition goes smoothly and that you will ease into a new normality soon.

Laura Leigh Dobson said...

sorry for your loss lindsay, truly. i understand what you are going through to a certain extent. our last move, to Bay St. Louis was pretty horrific. we love it here now but with a new born baby and a tiny house that our stuff would barely fit into it was a nightmare at times. i have pictures on my iPhone from those first several weeks and just to see the mayhem of half unpacked boxes and the look of death i often sported is enough to give me horrible flashbacks. add to that the fact that i was still recovering from a horrific 30+ hour labor. anyway. . . i just want to say i've been there. praying for yours and adam's mental health and physical strength to endure!